Then Now Later

It has been exactly a week that A started her 10th grade. She regarded it as her last first day at school as the chances are highly likely that she might be leaving the school after this academic year, for her further education and entering a junior college. To Where, For what, Is it confirmed and How are some questions we keep evading for now for we don’t have any concrete answers to any of them.

Back to the original point, I keep wondering how hugely our current thoughts have transformed when compared with the ones that originated nine years ago, on her first day as a first grader at this school.

Then : Will she miss home at school or get along well with friends and like the school ?

Now : Will she miss her school friends too much or manage to maintain the friendships even after departing ways ?

Then : Will she want to have home food or like the school snacks and lunch ?

Now : Will she miss her school favourites like cutlet, rajma etc or plan to attend alumni reunions and satisfy her cravings ?

Then : Will she be scared of her teachers or like them ?

Now : Will she miss her favourite teachers or make a point to connect with them whenever possible?

Then : Will she get lost in the huge campus or enjoy it cautiously ?

Now : Will she miss her campus or narrate and cherish anecdotes of her adventures ?

Then and Now, our thoughts might have transformed completely but the thoughts remain as such and have not vanished and will most likely continue to remain in the future too and may take an entirely new shape 😀

Dear A, If you ask for my tuppence worth, I would say, make new friends but keep the old friendships going on, explore new places but revisit the old ones, build new memories but relive the old ones.

Just keep on adding with no replacement !!!!

One of it’s kind feeling

If I were to join a new company, although I would have been excited about starting a new phase, I would have been nervous about how I would fit in and how the new environment would match to my liking.

If I were to go the same workplace as everyday, it would have been a regular routine with no big difference.

The feeling that I had experienced last Sunday in anticipation of Monday and the feeling that I experienced on Monday, the actual day, is one of it’s kind. I entered the office after two whole years. It’s a huge time !!!

Getting ready to go to office in proper attire, carrying laptop, walking through the office building, using lifts and access cards, having proper human interaction with support staff and colleagues, being greeted by warm smiles, hearing sounds in reality, each and every part of that day was exciting !!

I hadn’t worked for most part of the day except for attending two meetings. I talked and talked and talked to my heart’s content and had coffee and ate lunch. That’s it, the whole day went by in a jiffy but the warmth I experienced and the memories I made from that day will stay close to my heart. And there were hardly any people at work that day, the total count must be around fifteen. I wonder how it would feel like to experience the feeling of getting to meet everyone at once !

Anyways, that feeling of that day is just one of it’s kind of a feeling !!!

Little joys

Morning 9:30 to around evening 8:30, the day at work has been fully packed today with back to back meetings, identifying and fixing issues in the last minute, trying to bring all the commitments to a closure rushing through lunch and comfort break too, as today is a big deadline at work. I felt so exhausted by the end of the day that I had asked A to prepare Maggi as dinner for me. Wrapping up the day’s work and A bringing over my Maggi coincided and it was such a joy to relish it.

Ah !! The joy of being served dinner prepared by your daughter !!!

An hour later, A asks me if we can finish watching an old Hindi movie, Yeh Jawani Hi Deewani, which we had left midway a week ago. Turning on the AC, we finished watching the movie together.

Ah !! The joy of watching such feel good movies with your loved ones !!

A rough day with loads of hiccups doesn’t necessarily have to end the same way, little joys can put a perfect ending !!

Yeh Dil Maange More

My manager cum dear friend moved out from our team two weeks ago. She has been my manager right from the moment I joined this office and the team. Being a fan of her working style and having the opportunity to learn loads from her, I did not want her to move out of the team. I wish the very best for her and would like her to have the best of all but again, yeh Dil maange more, to get to spend many more years with her…

Couple of weeks ago, V and two of his college friends had planned to go for a short drive. They started at around 6:30 in the morning and drove off to their destination. Finishing the work at their destination, they realised that Nagarjuna Sagar is just 120 km away. Making an impromptu decision, they headed to that place, spent little time over there and came back. But then again Yeh Dil Maange More and so V and one of the two friends planned a little longer trip a week later and drove down to Goa, spent couple of days over there and came back.

A has become a lover of playing Wordle every day. But then again Yeh Dil Maange More and she wants to have more of it occasionally and on such days, switches to playing Absurdle, unlimited version of Wordle.

My college friend announced her India trip and the group of friends at Hyderabad is excited about her arrival and spending time with her. But then again Yeh Dil Maange More and the heart wishes for another friend too to come to India at the same time so that the fun can be doubled up.

A intended to finish couple of books in the short break that she has now before the next academic year begins. But again Yeh Dil Maange More and she increased her target of books as the break got extended a little of what she had expected.

Weekend is about to get over in a couple of hours. Yeh Dil Maange More for extended weekend 😀

Exemplary

You have excelled in academics with the limited support, be it of any form, that you had

You have continued to expand your education and earned degrees of various kinds with great enthusiasm

You have proven yourself in your wide career spanning different areas and various roles

You have set an example for others with respect to honesty and integrity

You have fulfilled your responsibilities as a son, brother, husband, father and a grandfather in every possible way you could

You have given back to society in all possible ways that you could by helping people through organisations

You have thanked God and expressed your gratitude through multiple spiritual activities

You have been a pillar of support for your children irrespective of at what age you were in

You have been a great reader and a great listener and a great enthusiast defying all the hindrances that could have come with aging

You have been completely independent physically, financially and in every other way until your last breath

Dear Thathayya , you are remembered by each of us, your family, extended family, friends, near and dear ones on this day, an year of your leaving us. We look forward to your blessings and hope to follow the high examples that you have set for us…

🙏🙏🙏

14 years !

Dear A,

You are fourteen now ! Sounds a big number, isn’t it ? At least, it does so to me. As funny as it may sound, sometimes I feel that you were born just the other day and entered our lives and sometimes I feel that you were part of my life all through out .

Are you the same little one who struggled a lot to learn cycling couple of years ago but now has learnt most part of riding a two wheeler ? Can you imagine the feeling of joy I experience when I see you riding a two wheeler, the thing that I couldn’t accomplish until now ? Believe in yourself and work towards what you desire, no matter how impossible it may seem.

Are you the same little one who was fed each and every little thing by me and your grandmother but now has grown into a big girl who can bake a complete dish on her own and serve a group with no help ? Love , help and care for everyone around you and it will give you the greatest joy in return.

Are you the same little one who needed my help for how to use the basics of a computer but now has reached a stage where you can generate Java programs all on your own ? It gives me great joy when I see you solve the tricky puzzles. No matter which career you choose, have great passion and love towards the work you do.

Can you imagine the feeling of contentment I experience when a teacher of yours tells me that I am blessed to have you ? Always be humble and stay grounded. For each task that you are able to accomplish, thank God for giving you the strength and opportunity to do so and for each that you aren’t able to, pray God to grant you the needed strength.

Are you the same little one who was quite scared to even cross a road but is now waiting desperately to go on NCC camps ? You have a desire to serve the nation in some way of which you do not have much clarity which is quite understandable. Keep the desire to serve growing and carve a path for yourself.

Can you imagine my inner smile when you choose to read a book rather than get lost in the Internet ? Pick great books that can help you broaden your horizons, that can take you into lands that you haven’t traveled , that can widen your imaginations like none other.

Are you the same little one who used to scribble around all colours but has grown into one who can paint beautifully ? Art is divine, keep learning as many arts as possible and enjoy the divinity with utmost respect towards it.

You are fortunate to be blessed with so many dear ones that love you to the moon and back. We are fortunate to have you as a beautiful blessing. With a beautiful smile etched on our lips and in our hearts, let’s share this wonderful journey together and may we look forward to many more wonderful memories to come…

My dear little one, may you be blessed with good health, kind heart, humble attitude, good thoughts, complete contentment, hardworking nature and loads of happiness. I wish you a very very happy birthday and may God be always with you…

Little pleasures

Are experienced when

  • All my blogger friends come together virtually
  • I get to hear their experiences, share their happiness and learn new ideas and stuff
  • I quench my thirst for writing through disciplined posts for a whole month
  • I see notifications flashing in my WP app everyday
  • I get a chance to share all my happy moments, fears, worries and get lots of warmth back
  • There’s lots of activity going on, as if everyone is literally at the same place
  • I see an accomplishment like this

Thank you all for making my journey through this Blogathon a wonderful and memorable one.

Hope to read more and more wonderful tales of yours…

Hope to share more and more wonderful tales of mine…

Surprises

Are the best ! They make one smile wide and they turn into beautiful memories. Some of the recent surprises that either made me smile or helped me make someone smile are here.

My dearest brother surprised me with salwar suit and a gold coin this Rakhi. I have never thought that I would receive gold through courier and my brother proved me wrong. I still wonder how can someone send gold through courier. The surprises were sweet and shocking. V’s cousin # 3 came home on the day of Rakhi and gifted me the saree after getting the Rakhi tied. The icing on the cake was that all the preprocessing for the saree (fall and pico) was done prior to gifting me, making things all the more easier for me. V’s cousin # 2 ordered an accessory for my office laptop, that serves as a stand as well as a fan, and it has been accompanying me each day ever since it arrived . V’s cousin # 4 has gifted the kurti with his own salary who has finished his graduation very recently and has just begun earning something. Each surprise made the day more and more special !

Sunnundalu

A dear friend often told me how much she liked sunnundalu sweets and asked me to send her some whenever I made them. The lazy me procrastinated it forever. When her birthday arrived in September, I didn’t find a time better than that day to send her the sweets. I surprised her with a box of sweets through Dunzo and it made her smile !

A dear friend turned 40 last November. Under normal circumstances, I would have met her every working day as the friend is a colleague too. I would have been able to surprise her in person. But owing to the current situation, I resorted to Amazon and ordered two books, one which I liked a lot and one which she had been intending to read for a long time. The quilling flowers are her creation by the way !

Hope I get a chance to bring more and more smiles on more and more dear ones in the coming days…..

Change

Last September, A’s school started mixed mode of teaching, providing both online and offline modes of education, giving the students an option to choose either of the two modes. Having been stuck at home for more than a year, A had been desperately waiting for the moment when she could go to school and attend classes in real instead of the online classes. She opted for the offline mode and we went ahead with her choice.

A day into the offline mode, she came home complaining that she couldn’t see properly the contents of the smart board at school. Apparently, her classmates had no problem in comprehending the contents but she had and she had to switch to the benches in the front to figure out what was being shown on the smart board. That evening, we went to get her eyes tested and I was hoping and praying that it would be all normal and it was all just because of something else.

But it was quite evident even during the tests that A had difficulty in reading stuff which I was able to read comfortably. It was clear that she needed spectacles to help her see properly. The ophthalmologist confirmed that A needed spectacles after couple of tests and prescribed some eye drops too.

It was like a shock to me as it was something that I hadn’t anticipated at all. It was a big change and I wasn’t prepared for it. But naturally there was no choice but to accept the change. Over the next few days, I got used to putting the eye drops in her eyes and the spectacles too arrived after a few more days. She got used to wearing the spectacles through out the day, to school and to play as well.

It has been just about four months that she started using spectacles but it feels as if they had been existing from the beginning and it feels like a big change when she doesn’t wear the spectacles for a moment.

Change feels big and scary only when we feel it for the first time, but once we accept it, it is no more a change and hence no more scary….

Weirdo

Since A was down with fever and cough for the last couple of days, we have swapped her place with V’s place during bed time. So she has been sleeping beside me and V shifted to the other room for the last four nights or so. Today she has decided to go back to her place and while shifting the pillows and blankets in the process, it felt as if she was travelling to a different city. Weird me, right ? 😜

When A makes fun of me or something that I say, I try to make a preaching statement in a humorous way and tell her how she should be respecting her mother and ask her to repeat “Matru Devo Bhava” 10 times. To this, her response of the recent times is to put this in a “for loop in a program”. Weird duo right ? 😜

Whenever A and me talk about dresses becoming shorter or A growing taller, I tell her that her height is enough and she can stop growing. She doesn’t agree to what I say and says that her height isn’t enough and she’ll grow more. Both of us know that we can neither stop nor increase the growth but we still choose to argue about this. Weird duo right ? 😜